Happy birthday, me!
I wanted to write another piece much like I did last year, but really there’s so much in common with it that I’ll just link back to then for the curious and for my newer followers, with a few additions and re-affirmations tacked on here.
The centre of all that change was a change in my attitude. Damned near everything from there onwards changed all those trite sayings that feel like there’s a tiny spark of sense in, into self-evident truths. Inspirational quotes no longer feel like “wish that were true” ‘cos they’re now more “Well yeah and birds fly, water’s wet, gravity pulls”.
I’ve had criticism from more than a few folk insinuating that all I was doing was settling - settling for a mundane existence, settling for what I had - and that being happy with that existence was a way of admitting life had me beaten, and it wasn’t truly *living*. On the face of it (and deeper I guess, too) acceptance alone is a bit like that.
Nothing is in a vacuum of course, and acceptance allowed me happiness which allowed me the freedom for so much more to come effortlessly. Like many things, talking about it is one thing but the proof comes out later. Two years ago I was an unemployed hermit with unused talent, scared of the world, and just about everything required more motivation than I could keep applying. Now - all’s the opposite :). I can’t judge that criticism harshly, though - when I lived in a state of mind that needed clear lines of proof before the fact, I’d have been that same critic.
I think that’s probably the basis of the benefits of faith. Accept, fall back, relax into existence, be happy with where you are - and have faith that despite all we’ve learned, less energy spent chasing can propel us effortlessly to places that once took all the work in the world to even *begin* to discover.
That’s all. Love well, you lot :)
(oh, and it’s the second best year only by virtue of coming first. Maybe I could call it the equal best year, or another awesome year, or Madeline)
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